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Deep down, I know that I am not reaching my fullest potential. I get sidetracked and distracted, and I am not 100% willing to do what is necessary to grow. I think a lot of people live their lives that way. We become complacent and settle wherever we are in life. We don't like going out of our comfort zones. Exploring new options is always scary. Slowly, I have been moving forward in my life, but progress has been at a lesser pace than I would have hoped for...That needs to change!
Lately, I have been looking deeper into myself. My dad and stepmom decided to purchase this one-year self-growth program, and we have agreed to hold each other accountable. I am grateful for this because for the past month, it has forced me to really focus on my growth. I have tried to improve myself in the past, but I have never 100% stayed on task. After a few days or weeks, I always got distracted.
Now, I feel like my life is really about to take off, but I have a lot of work to do. And, I need your help. I have discovered my areas of weaknesses, and I need your advice to help me overcome these barriers. Deep down, I know the answers to my own dilemma, but I would rather hear the words from someone else than to admit the truth to myself. I am getting there though.
One of the biggest barriers I have relates to overcoming fears. For the most part, I have conquered many of my fears, but I think some big ones still remain, and until I find the courage within, I will be held hostage to these fears. I don't want to discuss what these fears are. For the most part, they are pretty silly. However, I will say they all relate to financially related things. But, my question for you is how do you conquer fears. I know ultimately that you just have to do it and that ultimately facing your fears is the only way they will go away. But, I want to hear from someone else how they would conquer there fears. Obviously, I would have faced them already if it were that easy. But, unfortunately, my mind has put up this huge wall that is very difficult to tear down.
Another weakness that I need to work on include includes self-respect. Now, I know in public, I try and appear as if all is perfect with me. A lot of people try to put on that persona, but inside, I don't respect myself to the fullest extent that I should. Sometimes, I cheat myself out of things I deserve. Sometimes, I don't advocate for myself when I need to. These two are easy fixes, but there are more subtle ways that I don't respect myself the way I should. For one, I don't well. I either screw myself out of meals, or I end up eating junk food that is bad for my health. As well, I am a bit of a messy person. I think that the amount one takes care of their surroundings also represents how much they respect themselves. I don't clean things like I should. But, it is my every intent to change that. For the most part, my self-esteem is high, so I will overcome this barrier.
Another weakness that I have is setting goals and keeping them. Actually, I am good at keeping goals, but I often get sidetracked and goof off too much. To be honest, that is why I haven't been here in a while. I wanted a break. I had my fun time, but it is time to get serious. Anyway, when it comes to keeping my goals, I realize I need to be held accountable. I'm not 100% sure how to go about this. If anyone wants to volunteer to hold me accountable, please let me know.
Anyway, I bring up the above because I want to show you how I am working on realizing my weak points and trying to find solutions to overcome them. The biggest weak point has been my fears. For a long time in my life, I passed through my fears, but I have reached a stage where that seems an impossible challenge. And, yet, I write all the time about going out of your comfort zone, and I ask you to overcome your own fears. Seems kind of hypocritical of me. Anyway, what I am getting at is that I am working on taking my life to the next level. I am not sure what that will look like. I often wonder if I am living out my life's purpose. But, I do feel that things are about to get a lot better. I think I am scared because deep down I know that my life is going to change and it is going to be different from what it is like now. Am I ready? I think so.
Moving on, I had a good weekend. I went blues dancing on Saturday, and that is always nice. I may have made a new friend. I guess only time will tell. With that said, I thank you for reading today's blog entry, and I wish you a most awesome day of awesomeness.
Here it is! The official logo for my Empower Autism Now program. A new website will be coming in the next couple of months or so. What do you think of the logo?